Crash April 20 2026

I burned out my whole life. A few months in deep, almost manic focus and a few months of restoration where I hate myself, my job, etc.

I found that I just worked a lot because I do the best work. I love it. It's like drugs. Hyper focus. My schedule fixed it. With it I couldn't do extra work. Over the last year I worked hard, worked a lot and without burnouts.

W16 showed me that I can burnout with my schedule. I worked in 3-4 threads with AI agents to implement my ideas, organized a nice event, etc. People gave me energy to do more and I crashed.

During W17 I skipped almost all tasks in my schedule except a plank exercise, English, walking and morning routine.

Today Day 2026-04-26 I realized that yesterday I forgot about my English and broke my 400+ streaks in Readlang & ELSA Speak. I just forgot because yesterday as usual I did a plank before sleep and came up with knowledge base federation… and forgot about English. Okay, it's a lesson. Life just continues.

One year of every day practice and without schedule I still can forget about important tasks. I realized many months ago that my brain isn't reliable. But I have enough to implement tools that fix it. This project (elha.cc) is about these tools.

Good news: I burned out a little because my schedule just crashed and I immediately dropped almost all tasks. After one week, I actually feel okay. Before, it never ended so fast. Not sure, but you can check tomorrow's report to know: Day 2026-04-27.